remembering you

There is a certain fragrance in my life, that transports me instantly back to my childhood. To sleepovers and giggles, to whacks across my backside, lazy summer days at the public pools, and trips on the bus across town. To long hugs, nuzzling my face into the crook of your neck, sitting at your dresser …

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on making a decision, any decision

There's something oddly calming about making a decision. Like this invisible blanket of comfort and fortitude envelopes you, and for that one moment, you feel safe. You feel ok. I'm not talking about deciding what meal to eat at your favourite restaurant, or what movie to watch on tv. I'm talking about life changing decisions, …

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learning to walk again, whilst running away

My mind is running away from me. Again. I wish I could express what is going through my head. I wish I could be me. I don't even remember being me, who I really am. I just seem to be the person trying to pay all of the bills, trying to pull exhausted rabbits out …

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what it feels like, to me

I've been very open with my battle against depression. It is a daily fight, a daily struggle, a daily effort to do sometimes the simplest things, like open my eyes to face the new day. There are days where my head is so busy, so active, that I just go go go, and then crash …

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my darkness

Things have been good recently. Not good financially, but good emotionally, mentally. I've been happy. I've been positive. I've been smiling. I've been ok. Not today. I felt it when I woke up this morning. I felt it as I popped my pill before leaving for work. I felt it as I sipped on my …

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