on making a decision, any decision

There's something oddly calming about making a decision. Like this invisible blanket of comfort and fortitude envelopes you, and for that one moment, you feel safe. You feel ok. I'm not talking about deciding what meal to eat at your favourite restaurant, or what movie to watch on tv. I'm talking about life changing decisions, …

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learning to walk again, whilst running away

My mind is running away from me. Again. I wish I could express what is going through my head. I wish I could be me. I don't even remember being me, who I really am. I just seem to be the person trying to pay all of the bills, trying to pull exhausted rabbits out …

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so about last night

There is something very daunting about having to "pop" into the shops after work with the twins in tow. VERY daunting. So daunting in fact, that I really do try my very best not to do so, because it ends up being chaos. Pure and simple chaos. Last night was no exception. When I head …

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today i’m ok

I don't know what it is about today; I haven't slept, I have the worst heartburn since being pregnant, I have a million worries and stresses, but today I'm ok. I'm happy. I'm smiling. I'm calm. I literally went from work to work last night, only getting home at 00h10 this morning, and because it …

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who’s being strong for me?

Depression is a strange thing. One day, one moment, you're feeling calm and at peace, so sure of life, so sure of your future and the promise it may bring. The very next moment, the very next second, your world seems to cave in on you, and you can't breathe, you can't see tomorrow, and …

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