Earlier this week, your daddy and I found out that there isn’t just one of you in there, but two! I would be lying if I didn’t say that I wasn’t
really a little scared. I’m still battling to grasp the concept of 2 little beings growing inside of me.
I’m worried where we’re all going to fit; in the car, in our house and in life in general. I picture myself popping out to the shops with a baby on each hip, M-L walking next to me, my hair a total mess (that’s actually nothing new), baby ‘stuff’ on my shirt and most likely my pants, one (or knowing my luck both of you) will be crying for something, and it really is so much for me to take in right now.
My worst fear right now is that people will see me as ungrateful, when that is so far from the truth! I am feeling truly blessed at the fact that there are 2 of you in there; I have friends desperate for children, to have their own little person to love, and here I am, blessed with the 2 of you, and your big sister! I mean WOW!
But it’s not going to be easy little ones. It’s a daily, let alone monthly struggle in our household. Daddy is a hardworker, and he does everything in his power to provide for us. I’m working 2 jobs and your big sister even has chores! But one thing we have an abundance of, is love and hugs and kisses and laughter and smiles. We may not be the richest family with regards to financial wealth, but we are beyond rich with our love.
So babies, mommy’s scared. Mommy has even cried. Mommy actually laughed for almost 4 hours straight when she found out that there were 2 of you in there. But most of all, mommy loves you so very much, and can’t wait to meet you next February.
All my love